Eating Poison!

by | Oct 31, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

I am finally home from a week long stent in the hospital in which I received chemo. How do I describe what getting chemo feels like? All I can tell people is I feel strange. I feel weak. I feel drained. I feel blurry headed. I do not feel like throwing up. Thank God...

Trusting In The Process!

by | Oct 30, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, And he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6) A lot can change in a twenty four hour period of time, heck, it can change in a weeks’ time. Last...

Hope!

by | Oct 29, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us. 2 Corinthians 1: 1 Good morning! It is 4:12 AM and I am awaiting my day to start. Today is a big day for me. I am having another surgery to get the stitches out of my throat, putting in a uncuffed trach...

Creating

by | Oct 28, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

Right now,in this present moment, with your current thoughts you’re creating your future. What’s it going to look like? Did you know that each one of us takes 17,280-23,040 breathes a day? That gives you so many opportunities to say thank you God for my...

Unexpected!

by | Oct 26, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. ~ Philippians 1:6, NLT Once again what I expected to happen with my surgery is not what happened. I was supposed to...

Joy

by | Oct 23, 2012 | Books/Music, The Magnificent Journey

“I’d rather have roses on my table than diamonds around my neck.” Emma Goldman My sentiments exactly Mrs. Goldman, I am not a diamond kind of gal, but flowers do bring up a sense of enjoyment and beauty. I am learning to enjoy life, not with the big luxury items such...

Tenth Avenue North

by | Oct 22, 2012 | Books/Music, Exhilarating People

The last concert/show I went to was the summer of 2009 when I went to see Tori Amos and at that time I was not breathing so well and I was with a negative person in my life. Despite that, I loved the show. Strange how life changes in a blink of an eye and you gain new...

Breathe Of Life

by | Oct 20, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“Do not be conformed to this world (this age), (fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs), but be transformed (changed) by the (entire) renewal of your mind (by its new ideals and its new attitude). Romans 12:2 (Amplified version) Renewing my...

Gaining Strength!

by | Oct 14, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along’. You must do the thing...

Open Doors

by | Oct 13, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“Sometimes you hear a voice through the door calling you… This turning toward what you deeply love saves you.” Rumi4 Open doors, what are they? Open doors could be people, places, things, and food, anything that holds importance to us. Sometimes the doors have to be...

Clogs

by | Oct 8, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

I woke up from a good sleep needing to suction. I felt an obstruction in my t-tube. I felt this clog deep in my t-tube for the last couple of days and no matter how much I lavaged and suctioned it would not come out. Have you ever had a clog in your life that no...

What Doesn’t Kill Me

by | Oct 5, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.” Albert Camus I am getting stronger with each obstacle that I am facing or have faced in the last four years. I should have died several times in the last two years. First was in 2010 and the second was in 2011, but I didn’t. I...

River

by | Oct 3, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

“He crawled through a river of shit and came out clean on the other side.” Shawshank Redemption While watching “The Shawshank Redemption” this line in the movie popped out at me. Let me tell you I have crawled through my own river of shit and I am hoping to come out...

A Letter

by | Oct 1, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

A friend on Facebook messaged me last night and asked some questions. Here are my answers, I did send it to her, but I let out a lot of emotional stuff, so I thought it would make a good post for today. Hi Valerie, As Promised here are the self-evaluation questions...

Operation Relaxation!

by | Sep 30, 2012 | The Magnificent Journey

(My equipment, suction device, nebulizer, and hemidifier.) I had a day of relaxation. I needed it, especially after last night’s scare. Around 3 in the morning I felt a clog coming on. Of course, that meant I needed to suction, lavage, and nebulize myself in order to...

My Inner Artist

by | Sep 29, 2012 | Auto-immune, Books/Music, The Magnificent Journey

“The Artist Way” by Julia Cameron is a book that has been around for a long time. I finally got my hands on a copy of the book and the journal that comes with it. I am just starting week three of the exercises that she has you do to unblock your creativity. I have not...

Try Or Am I Too Tired!

by | Sep 28, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

I am in pain today. My back and sides are hurting making it difficult for me to walk. I did not feel like doing anything at all today. Myron walks in his usual way full of energy and vinegar and challenged me to get up out of bed. My negativity can go on; I have not...

Negative Monsters!

by | Sep 27, 2012 | The Magnificent Journey

I bet you have been wondering what happened to me. Nothing too exciting I can report in great details about finding a million dollar check in the mail, or flying off to Italy (sigh, I wish) or another great trip to the hospital. Nope, I lost my Internet due to my...

Self-Care

by | Sep 12, 2012 | Auto-immune, The Magnificent Journey

I decided that I will be meditating on bad nights and self-care. I am not talking about those nights when you are full of emotions because the neighbors just won’t stop playing their loud Twisted Sister records all night and you have to act like Dee Snider and bust...

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