Lofty Goals

Yep, another post about my new exercise program pulmonary rehab. I started reading the booklet this evening, after I took a two hour nap and took a soak in the bathtub to help my legs feel better. I am also having a flare-up this week. My wrist, middle finger on my...

Getting To Know You!

I have had the tune “Getting To Know You” from the Yul Brenner’s movie “The King and I” with Maureen O’Hara from the late 50’s early 60’s stuck in my head. I am getting to know my stomach again. I used to know my stomach well, but that all changed when I had my...

Resting

Yesterday I spent the entire day relaxing in order for my body to heal. I also took a water pill and been peeing a lot in order to get the water retention gone from my body. I see the evidence in my right foot and I hate seeing my foot swollen. It is ugly. I retain...

Challenges

Yesterday was a challenging day, actually the whole week was. Every single day I had something to do and even today I have something to do. I am tired, but I feel good at the same time about what I am accomplishing. It is a bit of a contradiction, but sometimes things...

My Heart Still Beats

I am in Longview. I got here yesterday evening after my doctor appointment. I got my heart results. The good news, my heart is healthy, the correct size, the valves are open, and I am pumping correctly. The heart rate going up while I am walking around is due to my...

Divine Purpose

“You have to be willing to consider that, regardless of the trauma, there is a divine purpose that moves in tandem with every even in your life, painful and joyful.” Carolyn Myss I would love to be assured that the trauma’s that I have suffered in the last four years...

One Milestone

Another mile stone that is happening on my journey is that I can now put my Jaxton trach into the stoma without needing the mirror to guide me. I also learned the value of lube in making sliding the sucker in easier for me. Considering that I have had my trach or some...

Swollen, But Hopeful

Walking down the hallway towards the rec room I felt my body communicating its struggle to breathe, heart racing, difficulty in getting oxygen in the lungs as I moved my body, and a slower than usual pace all leads me to the conclusion that my inflammation is back...

Be Still My Beating Heart!

Wednesday morning I went to the Legacy Good Samaritan to get an Echo Cardiogram done of my heart. I got to see and hear my own heart, what an experience that was. I woke up with not wanting to get up. I wanted to stay curled up in my bed sleeping with my cat. I forced...

Rainy Days And Mondays!

“I now know what it is to feel as vulnerable as a human being can feel. I was ready to become dependent on others’ care, which, for someone as independent as I am, was no comfort. Having to say if this what I must accept, so be it, can feel like chewing glass, but not...

A Year In Review

I had an opportunity to view my timeline on Face Book. It opened my eyes to the fact that I had been through a lot in 2012. Six surgeries, getting a caregiver, learning to live with a trach and then a t-tube in my throat, doing the Christmas Angel Telethon, and...

A New Challenge!

Another step towards my healing I am wearing a turquoise blue heart monitor. The reason you may be wondering is because when I had my chemo treatment on November 13th, 2012 a month ago to be exact. I started having heart palpitations and went to the ER. I remember...

Disappointments!

I awoke at 4 AM looking forward to getting my results from the biopsy I had done at the end of October to see if I have IGG4. Arriving at my destination sitting in the doctor’s office anticipating the chance to finally know what I have and not just a bunch of guesses....

A Love Letter To My Body!

I have been thinking about my body lately. I came across this concept of forgiving my body. Why not? Seems reasonable, we forgive others for things they do wrong, so why not our own frail bodies that fall apart for no apparent reason or have unknown ailments that...

Grumpy Girl Kind Of Day!

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and endless plans: That the moment one definitely commits...

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