Can you believe May is here? I am still puzzled at how fast time is zooming by. A lot of life changing things happened to me in April and May is going to be easily impactful for me as well. Here is what will be happening: I will be having a balloon dilation surgery on my lungs on May 12th. Yep, the same surgery that I have been having on my trachea the last 14 years will be happening in my lungs now. Let me tell you, anxious is not the correct word for how I am feeling about this. I’m scared, disappointed, and frustrated all mixed in one emotion. This has made it challenging for me to think about goals for May, but I did choose to think about it. Not only will I be having lung surgery, but I will be going back on Rituximab and this time it is 4 rounds. 1 a week for four weeks. They are hitting me hard because my lungs are closing up, that is why they needed to be balloon dilated and bright red. I am currently on 60 MG of steroids on top of all my other medications. I am not in a fun place at the moment. I am still processing through all the emotions I am feeling. I am learning to be gentle and accept this new hurdle in my life. I am having a hard time. I am just being honest with how I am feeling at the moment. Let’s get on with the show, my goals for May.
My goals:
* 4 Rituximab infusions
* 4 Hirentza Infusions
* Lung balloon dilation surgery on 5-12-2022
* Write one article for Wellness Works NW. I have not done this for a long time because one of my best sister/friends is fighting cervical cancer and even though it is stage 1. It is still a painful experience, so we all decided to be gentle with ourselves. She surprised me the other asking for articles from me, so I am honoring her request.
* Write one article that is non-goal or book review related for Jamie Chases Butterflies.
* After lung surgery, read through and start the editing of my rough draft I just finished for The Practice of Suffering.
* Log food choices in my planner. I have back slide on this since taking prednisone and I am noticing I am eating more than I need to and should. It is time to get back into the practice of writing everything done again.
* Get my color books out and color to relax in the evenings or when I am not able to sleep.
* Read a chapter in a book every night before I go to sleep.
* Meditation, breathe work, listen to my soul for my healing journey and how I should respond to certain things instead of just reacting.
* Listening to music more often
I am choosing to be gentle with myself in May. I have a lot of medical things going on and my body will be full of medications that I have not had in a long time.
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