Starting Again

Healthy habits are not a thing of chance but of choice. As with any bad habit, a new and healthier habit can be practiced so as to replace the bad one. Dr. Caroline Leaf

This is my second attempt to write a post using my tablet. I had a post written, but it disappeared on me. I was frustrated. I threw my hands up and said forget this. Tonight while visiting with a friend, she asked me if I had been purging. I’m like I haven’t thrown up. I am not sick. She said, no that is not what I meant, she meant had I been writing. Writing for me is a way for me to purge all of my emotions. Since the loss of my laptop I have not been able to purge with writing my emotions.Typing on the tablet is not the same. I like having keys to it and make clacking noises as I press them. I like being able to type the way that I learned how in typing class my freshman year of high school. Hen and pecking does not work for me. I hate complaining, I choose to be thankful. Using a tablet for typing is not my ideal, at least I can at least write and post, and do most things that I can do on a laptop. I am still trying to figure out how to copy and paste links on this tablet. That is one thing that I must be able to do.

As for the medical aspect of my life, a few things are happening. I am done with pain management, so I am moving on to physical therapy. In fact, my first appointment is Friday morning. This coming week is full of appointments. My trachea is growing more granulations and closing up again. I will be having another surgery on august 2nd. I’m sad about this. One of the ways my tracheal stenosis shows up is thru my voice. Sometimes my voice works and sometimes it does not. Air flow is cut off because of the granulation and air is needed to make the voice box work.

I started a new medication, Lyrica. So far, it is working for me. I am being mindful of how I am eating since one of the side effects is hunger and weight gain. All I am experiencing is tiredness. I am hoping it will go away as my body gets use the new med.

This week I am seeing a nutritionist and having my first meeting with a physical therapist. I have decided to go in with an open mind and willing heart instead of a know it all and tried that and I feel like a 90 year old mindset. I am approaching this slowly and with determination and with an open and ready to learn mind.

Until next time, breathe deep.