If you are my friend then you already saw my video that I created telling you about my experience with meeting with my physical therapist for my assessment. It was an eye opening experience. I never realized how far I have deteriorated with my physical abilities until that assessment. I am thoroughly upset, but I am using that emotion to keep me going.
Recently, I had a dream where I was rolling skating with 6 extremely tall men who were dressed in armor. They had the helmet, the breastplate, the shield, and the sword and also were roller skating with me. I didn’t feel afraid of them. I saw them and somehow knew that they were there to help me. We got to this gate and this tall, multi-colored hair woman was there. I was deeply afraid of her. She was intimidating because of her height. I said to her, I’m afraid, please do not hurt me. She said I am not here to hurt you. I am here to help you on this path. I woke up at peace. This dream happened the morning I went to get my physical assessment for pool therapy.
I am weak. My legs are not strong like they once were. I am not stable on my feet. I often time feel like I am off kilter when I am trying to walk or stand or do anything without my wheelchair. Where I am at is all due because I have not been able to move, to be physically active like I once was. I have not been able to do any kind of exercise, because of my tracheal stenosis. I’m grateful that my muscles are not atrophied yet. If I don’t do something about it now. That would be a likely prognosis. I have seen the horrors have not being able to stand up on your own two feet. It is ugly. It is scary. It is humiliating.
I am beginning a new chapter in my life where I am no longer going to be spending 90 percent of my time fighting to breathe. I will be focusing every ounce of energy that I have on getting physically stronger, emotionally stronger, mentally stronger, and spiritually stronger in a balance manner. My journey through 120 surgeries since 2009 has given me some awesome tools and the knowledge that I have what it takes to persevere through anything that is thrown at me. I have endurance. I am strong. I have the support that I need. That I no longer have toxic people in my life who will detour me from taking care of my body and instead take care of them. Most importantly that I am worth fighting for. I am not arrogant about all my blessings. I know that Jesus and his angels have been with me the entire time. I have felt them and I still feel them. I am grateful.
Since I am beginning a new journey I have decided to video myself going through the changes. To share my goals, my struggles, challenges, triumphs, and maybe some things that I learn along the way. I hope to inspire you all to take care of yourselves. To fight for you. To open up your heart, your mind, your soul to Jesus and his army to guide you through the process. Let’s inspire each other. Let’s cheer each other on. That is my heart.
Since I cannot get into the pool until August 5th. My PT therapist gave me one thing to do. She wants me to start standing. Simply get up off my wheelchair and stand. A healthy person should be able to do this safely for 1 hour. When I was there I was only able to do it for 1 minute. Tuesday, I was able to do it for 3 minutes. I did it while watching Hillsong Worship and The Colour Conference on the Hillsong Channel. I am working myself up to 5 minutes. That is my first goal. Then I am going to go up from there. One step forward at a time. Once a week I hope to be able to get a video done. One of my awesome friends gave me some pointers to make it better. The next segment will be a better viewing for all.
I want to share some things that I did learn at my appointment and could inspire you:
- Like I say in my video this week. It only takes 2.5 hours a week that is 3, 35 minute times of exercise to decrease your risk of stroke, diabetes, and heart disease.
- Pool therapy is a good choice for exercise, especially for those with joint issues. When you are in shoulder deep water, a person only has to support 10 percent of their actual weight.
- I have noticed that me just standing makes my heart rate go up to 126. It is amazing to me that just standing can make my heart go up to wear I need it to go in order to burn fat.
Keep breathing, keep moving, until next time.
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