It’s the end of August already, can you believe it? I certainly can’t. It’s been a rough month for me. Not only physically, but also emotionally. Let me explain, not only is the air quality from the fires bad (I live in Washington state and near the Oregon border into Portland), but my heart feels like it is full of smoke. I feel just blah. There are a lot of emotional things with my body that are happening and with my family and my heart aches. So I have been doing a lot of evaluation and considering of where I want to go and what steps I need to take. In that, I started asking God what I need to do. I got some interesting answers. I called and made an appointment for an evaluation to seek some counseling. I feel kind of loss with this whole not having to concentrate on doctor appointments. I’m tired of reading health blogs, books on health and eating right that seems to bombard me every turn I take. It’s overwhelming. I enjoy learned and researching things. I enjoy reading and learning new things. I love to cook and try out new recipes. I’m still desiring to cook and eat the best I know how. In July when I went to see and nutritionist, she told me straight out that I already know everything that I need to do for my health. She knew that I read a lot, that this wasn’t my first trip to the rodeo. That is true. You see I want an easy answer. I want to be like the normal women who I see who can run, job, and go through human exercise a thons and come out kicking butt. I realize, that the deck is stacked against me. Since the air quality is bad getting out of the house is not a good idea for me at this time. That means I have to do something else to move my body. I do have tools to help me. I just wish I had someone to do them with. A community of heavy breathers that moved just as slow as I do and who have complications but still kicked butt at it. I know I kick butt. I’m a lot like my elderly mother in that I do not want to become compliant with my health. I want to be a warrior who just didn’t laid down and let the diseases and old age kill me. I want to be viable and active in my life. Those are my desires. I also want to be able to help others. I do help with my blog and my Facebook page and with those I meet in my life.
Ever since I got the remission announcement from Dr. Gardner. I have been stuck in what do I now mode. He told me it is time for me to concentrate on something else in my life. I got this in June and it is hard for me to switch off the part of my brain who is still in that early stage of being ill where everything had to be about my illness. I don’t have to do that anymore. I can give a big portion to something else in my life. I do have many things I want to do. I have some awesome plans in the works that I hope will be God’s will for my life. I am surrendering them to God. The waiting is so hard. Just like the Old Tom Petty song says. As you can see I have a lot I can discuss with the counselor who will give me a chance to get into a different mode in my life so that I can kick butt in all areas of my life.
That takes me to portion of this post where I talk about goals. I set out with some goals for August. I did well.
So let me recap the goals I set for myself in August and then I will share my September goals.
- Write daily for my book: I failed. Yes, I didn’t write anything.
- Walk outside with Jesse and Kelly: I did this a few times, but when the air quality from the fires started happening. I had to think of a different plan for my exercise. I started working out on my ball every morning.
- Create two recipes: I did this. One I wrote and posted about. Sauerkraut. I love it. I am excited to try my own out in a week. I will keep you posted on how it turns out.
- Journal: I’ve done this.
- Ask God before making decisions: I have begun this process. I’m not that great at it, because I just get in too much of a hurry to come up with a solution. I know, I know. I just ask for forgiveness and then fix the mistakes. Surrendering, just like waiting is so hard. But I know God has given me the strength to trust him no matter what. He hasn’t let me down yet.
- Continue taking my blood sugars, peak flow: I’ve done this. The peak flow chart looks like a heart monitor. I have found that when the air is cool I get higher results. I’m thinking about making an appointment to see Dr. Anderson soon since my ear is now bothering me and he did tell me he wants to keep track of me every two months. It’s been two months since I’ve seen him.
New goals. Last week I asked God what he would like my new goals to be for September.
- Prepare 5 recipes from the Eating Well Magazine I got for September. I’ve been receiving the Eating Well magazine for a couple of months now. I love it. The fall recipes looks scrumptious.
- Renew my library card. I have a ten dollar fine on it. It is time that I start making a trip to the library once every two weeks be part of my routine. It gives me a chance to get out of the house and explore a new place. And get some fiction books that I can read.
- Walk with Jesse and Kelly. August I didn’t walk much because of the air quality warnings. The air has been bad since the wild fires that have been happening all over Washington and Oregon. Last weekend a bunch of smoke came over the mountains and put the city of Vancouver and Portland in a fog like state. Eyes were burning and throat were hurting. I stayed in.
- On the days I am not walking with Kelly or Jesse. I will be doing some strength training with my ball. I need research some exercise moves to remember when I am in my apartment. I have no internet access in my apartment, so watching youtube videos is no easy feat for this lady.
- Make a dentist appointment.
- Play a board game at least once this month. I love board games. I have a few of them. My nephew who comes twice a week to help me said he would play a game with me. I’m taking him up on that offer.
- Train for my first 5 K which will be October 5th.