“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along’. You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

-Eleanor Roosevelt
Often times I hear those around me say I wouldn’t be able to handle or do what you are doing to maintain your health. I think that is utter malarkey. Here is why, imagine this:

Every time that you are walking your heart races, your chest constricts, you start gasping for air. You have not walked far, just to the kitchen or even down to the mail box which is less than a block away and you start sweating. Your body naturally wants to survive. The rapid heartbeat, the sweat all these alarms in your body trying to keep you moving to keep you breathing. The fact is we all have a built in survival mode in our bodies that God created for those exact moments. Think about it, what happens when a trauma occurs. Our brains fracture off so that we do not have to remember them, or are body starts immediately trying to bleed out the poisons in our bodies. When getting a cold, our body sends out cells to attack the viruses so that we can heal and be well again. Our bodies are complicated. Even so, they are a miracle too.

I am a miracle. As I have been penning my book I have realized how far I have actually come to dying. How far I have come and I didn’t do it by myself. Yes, my healing does not look like what you might expect. Yes, I have to have my modification in to help me breathe. The fact is I am breathing. No, it is not perfect. I am still thankful that I can still breathe. It has now been two months since I had my T-Tube surgery. August 1st and then again September 4th, my voice box is healed after the battery of assaults it undertook with three surgeries in two months. I rested a lot in two months, now I am slowly gaining more energy. Even if I get plugs that cause me to have to suction and nebulize. I am still breathing. I am changing my thoughts. Renewing my mind so that I can focus on those things that are not toxic but are healthy after all isn’t that what God wants for us? I believe it is.
When a disaster happens do you tell yourself something negative or do you tell yourself something positive?