There’s Going To Be A Jailbreak!

Have you ever received messages that just make you think? I have, messages for me can be in the lyrics to a song, a line in a movie, a quote, a book I am reading, something a person is saying to me, or even a thought that pops into my head. Tonight, while sitting in my lonely hospital bed an image came across my stream with a saying that said “Once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, if the storm is over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in.”

Three years ago when I first walked in to the storm of Vasculitis I never imagined all the twists and turns that I endure all in order to get healthy. Man, let me tell you there have been a lot of curvy turns, twisted snares, and road blocks that seemed to just want to stay no matter how much dynamite I used. Right now, is one such obstacle. I am awake this morning facing another surgery that I just had done last week. The T-stent is too high up and is pressing against my vocal cords. I want to talk. This girl loves using her voice. This time has not been the first obstacle that I have had to face and each obstacle my endurance level has been stretched to its limit. I am realizing I must be getting ready for one awesome assignment with all these amazing things that have been happening. From having hallucinations, being tied to the bed, losing my voice more than once, dealing with different types of nurse, doctors, and care professionals, choosing to shave my head, having a metal pole in my throat for 6 months and now a T-stent. I must say, I feel crooked and jagged but I am one lovely, crooked, jagged woman. I am still thankful for being here and for every obstacle that I faced and are now gone.

At noon today I will be rolled into the operating room and having the current T-stent removed and a new one placed lower and then hopefully I will be able to go home. I can make a jail break and be free. I am looking forward to being home and being greeted by my Nicholas and visited by people. Just to let everyone know, if you want to see me you have to come down and see me. Vickie is staying with me until the end of the month. We will be cooking up a storm. She and I have been flipping through some magazines while in the hospital to find recipes to try out. I believe that her being here is sparking her passion and the positive energy she is experiencing is helping her too. I love that. I love my sister a ton. Until next time, have a glorious day!